Art was always apart of my life

Since I remember, my mother has always been artistic. I absolutely have to give credit to her when it comes to my artsy abilities. When I was little, I remember this awesome red and white fabric notebook she made me. There I would draw anything that I put my mind to. Not only that, but she would also make and decorate my birthday cakes which I absolutely loved, her and my grandma would make me clothes, they would also both knit and crochet which I always wanted to do. My grandmother also fed my craving to learn. So when it comes down to art, I really do love ALL THINGS ART!!

Even though I wasn’t really taught by them, I eventually practiced and learned basics from just watching and reading on How-To guides I would pick up at my local craft stores. I’ve picked up a few skills along the way.

  • drawing
  • painting
  • calligraphy
  • scrapbooking
  • jewelry making
  • knitting
  • crocheting
  • photography

My grandfather was also an excellent carpenter, in turn sparked my fuel wanting to learn woodworking. As a child, rarely was I allowed to use any of his tools without supervision of course but eventually I took classes in high school and wanted to make my future career to be an architect. Time has changed that but I still love the idea.

Now being a stay at home mommy I want my children to have some of that love for art I also had as a child. Whatever I may be doing at the moment, they always want to join in too. We work out a plan for everyone to join in…eventually.

As I future goal, I would like to improve all of my skills. I wouldn’t call myself an expert by any means but it sure does have a nice ring to it.

 

In the beginning

One thing I hate the most about myself is my memory. I hardly remember anything from my past. Don’t get me wrong, I do remember but I would like to remember more. I can remember as far as being 3, in headstart, the taste of the toothpaste I had in our daily teethbrushing routine was the best thing ever. I remember it so distinctly! But contrary to that, I can’t remember where I was when I went into labor with my first child. I try so hard to remember but I just can’t.

So I’m doing this for me, for my children, for others to learn from my experiences and the knowledge that I have within me. I believe my choices as a mother, wife, girlfriend, friend, coworker are unique and others can learn from what I have already experienced or gain a sense of knowledge on subjects that I know and are familiar with.

A little background about myself, I’m 31. I suppose I started living though a midlife crisis since I was 16 and it hasn’t stopped. When I feel like things are getting better, something worse happens and the whole cycle of “digging the whole deeper” starts all over again. I have 5 amazing, wonderful children. I’m a divorcée, but after that I have found someone that holds my heart. We aren’t married but I know it’ll happen. We’ve already picked out rings just waiting for that wonderful day of surprise when he asks me to marry him.

I struggle sometimes with depression, anxiety and stress amongst other problems but I work through it. The stories of my life aren’t all cupcakes and rainbows and I don’t sugarcoat it. It is what it is. (I dislike that saying btw). Sometimes my negativity brings me down to that level. You just absolutely have to think positive, as hard as that is to do! It really helps.

I’ve picked up drawing, painting and calligraphy to help with my stress. Which brings me to another reason for why I wanted to do this. To help me share my artwork with the world.

So I end today with a quote from Harriet Tubman, she says.

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.”

Thought of the night…water birth!!

Water birth! Something that typically comes to mind when you’re pregnant. You always want the best for your child and for yourself. You try to eat healthy despite those late night cravings. You spend countless hours thinking about every detail of how you want your pregnancy to turn out. Pregnancy is such an amazing adventure! Delivery is another.

Have you ever had a birthing plan to include a water birth then opted for a more traditional hospital birth? Even though the rate of a hospital birth is higher, doesn’t mean that it was planned out as such.

So what factors come into play? Number one answer is FEAR!! Or more specfically, will I have access to pain medication while delivering this human from out of my va-(you-know-what)?! That really all depends if its an option where you are going to deliver. I’m telling you right now, my hospital births were WAYYYY more painful!

All of these things went through my mind one night while I was showering (per usual place of thinking). My first three children were hospital births and they were all horrible experiences! None of the doctors that I saw throughout my entire pregnancy actually delivered me! That really upset me, I mean for me to have connected with the doctor throughout my pregnancy then to have a stranger deliver my child was just bonkers.

My cousin who I grew up with, (we are practically sisters) told me about water births. I had pondered on the idea but didn’t have any information on it. So when my boyfriend and I found out we were going to have another baby I went straight away to the birthing center and fell in love!

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I had just delivered a few hours prior to this photo, I was tired.

I LOVED my last 2 deliveries. I wouldn’t want it any other way EVER AGAIN! I was in a setting that was calm and relaxing. No loud beeping, being connected to tubes, loud voice over the PA system calling for someone. It was serene. The best part, my midwives who I had seen throughout my pregnancy were actually there for me! I have no recollection of the doctors and nurses that helped me deliver my first 3 babies. Slight details here and there but I literally do not know who caught my baby or who was even in the room besides my partner. It’s embarrassing for me to even mention that.

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Haley checking Damon’s vitals.

Devon and Aimee were the two midwives with my 4th. Vanna, Gina and Haley were the midwives and nurse with my 5th. I absolutely love and adore these women. Maybe its my hormones, but I literally want to cry every time I think about all they did for me to help me have the absolute best water birth experience that I could have possibly had. These remarkable women move from their hometown to work at the local birthing center for only a short stay then they go back home If I ever do get pregnant again they wouldn’t be there which is the downfall. But of course I would then meet another set of wonderful women and the process starts all over. Their dedication and passion is just so meaningful to me.

Would you like to hear my birthing stories? Please leave a comment and like if you’ve thought about or have had a water birth. Was it a great experience for you as well? Till next time, Rod squad out.