Where are you?

As you read this post, think about where you are. Are you comfortable? In the bathroom? Laying down? Sitting at your desk, scrolling mindlessly to find something remotely interesting?

I am in…bed, the kids are asleep and I should be too but this is MY TIME. The only time I have for myself is now. I do get a few minutes alone here and there. But right now I’m talking about a few hours WITHOUT DISRUPTIONS. My brain is fried as it usually is toward the end of the day longing for that night time replenish just to be drained all over again the next day. But that’s ok to me, is it like that for you?

If you’re one of those early birds, my question to you is, how do you do it? When do you get time to do things? I’ve honestly tried to go to bed early, wake up early and I somehow wake up feeling even worse!! I will probably always be a night owl.

I am comfortable at least, during this late night post, when I get time to write and draw and that’s what matters for me. I don’t think I would be able to get anything done if I wasn’t comfortable while working. So let me know! When you’re doing a hobby, working, playing video games, etc., are you comfortable and having fun? I HOPE YOU have a great day, afternoon, night whatever time of day it is for you! See ya later alligator!

Art was always apart of my life

Since I remember, my mother has always been artistic. I absolutely have to give credit to her when it comes to my artsy abilities. When I was little, I remember this awesome red and white fabric notebook she made me. There I would draw anything that I put my mind to. Not only that, but she would also make and decorate my birthday cakes which I absolutely loved, her and my grandma would make me clothes, they would also both knit and crochet which I always wanted to do. My grandmother also fed my craving to learn. So when it comes down to art, I really do love ALL THINGS ART!!

Even though I wasn’t really taught by them, I eventually practiced and learned basics from just watching and reading on How-To guides I would pick up at my local craft stores. I’ve picked up a few skills along the way.

  • drawing
  • painting
  • calligraphy
  • scrapbooking
  • jewelry making
  • knitting
  • crocheting
  • photography

My grandfather was also an excellent carpenter, in turn sparked my fuel wanting to learn woodworking. As a child, rarely was I allowed to use any of his tools without supervision of course but eventually I took classes in high school and wanted to make my future career to be an architect. Time has changed that but I still love the idea.

Now being a stay at home mommy I want my children to have some of that love for art I also had as a child. Whatever I may be doing at the moment, they always want to join in too. We work out a plan for everyone to join in…eventually.

As I future goal, I would like to improve all of my skills. I wouldn’t call myself an expert by any means but it sure does have a nice ring to it.

 

In the beginning

One thing I hate the most about myself is my memory. I hardly remember anything from my past. Don’t get me wrong, I do remember but I would like to remember more. I can remember as far as being 3, in headstart, the taste of the toothpaste I had in our daily teethbrushing routine was the best thing ever. I remember it so distinctly! But contrary to that, I can’t remember where I was when I went into labor with my first child. I try so hard to remember but I just can’t.

So I’m doing this for me, for my children, for others to learn from my experiences and the knowledge that I have within me. I believe my choices as a mother, wife, girlfriend, friend, coworker are unique and others can learn from what I have already experienced or gain a sense of knowledge on subjects that I know and are familiar with.

A little background about myself, I’m 31. I suppose I started living though a midlife crisis since I was 16 and it hasn’t stopped. When I feel like things are getting better, something worse happens and the whole cycle of “digging the whole deeper” starts all over again. I have 5 amazing, wonderful children. I’m a divorcée, but after that I have found someone that holds my heart. We aren’t married but I know it’ll happen. We’ve already picked out rings just waiting for that wonderful day of surprise when he asks me to marry him.

I struggle sometimes with depression, anxiety and stress amongst other problems but I work through it. The stories of my life aren’t all cupcakes and rainbows and I don’t sugarcoat it. It is what it is. (I dislike that saying btw). Sometimes my negativity brings me down to that level. You just absolutely have to think positive, as hard as that is to do! It really helps.

I’ve picked up drawing, painting and calligraphy to help with my stress. Which brings me to another reason for why I wanted to do this. To help me share my artwork with the world.

So I end today with a quote from Harriet Tubman, she says.

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.”