One thing I hate the most about myself is my memory. I hardly remember anything from my past. Don’t get me wrong, I do remember but I would like to remember more. I can remember as far as being 3, in headstart, the taste of the toothpaste I had in our daily teethbrushing routine was the best thing ever. I remember it so distinctly! But contrary to that, I can’t remember where I was when I went into labor with my first child. I try so hard to remember but I just can’t.
So I’m doing this for me, for my children, for others to learn from my experiences and the knowledge that I have within me. I believe my choices as a mother, wife, girlfriend, friend, coworker are unique and others can learn from what I have already experienced or gain a sense of knowledge on subjects that I know and are familiar with.
A little background about myself, I’m 31. I suppose I started living though a midlife crisis since I was 16 and it hasn’t stopped. When I feel like things are getting better, something worse happens and the whole cycle of “digging the whole deeper” starts all over again. I have 5 amazing, wonderful children. I’m a divorcée, but after that I have found someone that holds my heart. We aren’t married but I know it’ll happen. We’ve already picked out rings just waiting for that wonderful day of surprise when he asks me to marry him.
I struggle sometimes with depression, anxiety and stress amongst other problems but I work through it. The stories of my life aren’t all cupcakes and rainbows and I don’t sugarcoat it. It is what it is. (I dislike that saying btw). Sometimes my negativity brings me down to that level. You just absolutely have to think positive, as hard as that is to do! It really helps.
I’ve picked up drawing, painting and calligraphy to help with my stress. Which brings me to another reason for why I wanted to do this. To help me share my artwork with the world.
So I end today with a quote from Harriet Tubman, she says.
“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.”